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it come to a point where i want to throw everything aside.
i cant be bothered already..
why should i not do so when nobody cares.
thanks for everything.
but i had enough.
its time for me to move on.
backfromholiday
.aishah.
Mar 13, 2009
at time like this, i feel guilty on taking side. one thing that make me uncomfortable is that i know that you have been talking about me behind my back. if you really call yourself a friend, you will definitely try to forget the past and move on. repeat only when all of us are reminiscing the past. why is it so difficult to forgive and forget? whats more, the people involved are actually the people not in it. i m actually in better term to the person whom i used to have issued with in the past, rather than the rest.
Forgive and Forget is a difficult term, i know. but once you learn the skill to it, you realize that it is easier to move on without thinking about the past. you get to communicate easily and all. i have been trying to do so. but have you?
misunderstanding usually occurs 'cause the uninvolved party tend to side one party to another. too many people involved that the matters get out of hand. yeah, that person involved can tell you everything what he think about and such. but don't side with him/her. be neutral. from what i see, you are not.
i know i have no right to be saying this. but it really pain to see one struggling to be alive since he feels alone, while the other feel like a winner thanks to the support of the others. i myself feel at lost as to how to console the other. the only thing i can do is to tell him, "he just need time. Let him cool. After sometime he will realize what happen." i myself have no solution to this, as i m feeling the same way as he does, except that mine have been going on for quite some time.
it is really unfair when you said i spend more with my other friends than you all. yeap. i m busy. i tried my very best to spend more time. but uncomfortability is what i felt everytime i m with you guys. you may ask why is this so. i tell you why. try being in my shoe, of knowing that you have been talking about me, but i m left in the dark on what you talk about. see if you like it.
i m not blaming anyone for this issue. but for those not really involve in this, give them some time! don't start pinpointing mistake at one another. it will come to a no good.
misunderstanding occurs since there is a lack of clarity during the transmission of communication. just to remind you of that.
for this post, don't start assuming. if you think you know, then you know. if you dont, then you dont. don't say i m not warning you.
listen to both thoughts if you want to help them. dont just listen to one party and start assuming again. that is called unfairness.
oh well. i don't know what the hell i m talking about. i hope you are feeling better after the talk to that certain person.
ooh. and to all OPSS alumni, GO FOR SPEECH DAY!! we need the money in order to cut down the ticket price for the alumni dinner which will be held in July.
hehe. HOLIDAY HERE I COME! in need of serious break, man!
love you syg for being there.
p.s: PHOEBE!!! i feel bad for not being able to celebrate your birthday on the day itself. i promise we go out together. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
.aishah.
Forgive and Forget is a difficult term, i know. but once you learn the skill to it, you realize that it is easier to move on without thinking about the past. you get to communicate easily and all. i have been trying to do so. but have you?
misunderstanding usually occurs 'cause the uninvolved party tend to side one party to another. too many people involved that the matters get out of hand. yeah, that person involved can tell you everything what he think about and such. but don't side with him/her. be neutral. from what i see, you are not.
i know i have no right to be saying this. but it really pain to see one struggling to be alive since he feels alone, while the other feel like a winner thanks to the support of the others. i myself feel at lost as to how to console the other. the only thing i can do is to tell him, "he just need time. Let him cool. After sometime he will realize what happen." i myself have no solution to this, as i m feeling the same way as he does, except that mine have been going on for quite some time.
it is really unfair when you said i spend more with my other friends than you all. yeap. i m busy. i tried my very best to spend more time. but uncomfortability is what i felt everytime i m with you guys. you may ask why is this so. i tell you why. try being in my shoe, of knowing that you have been talking about me, but i m left in the dark on what you talk about. see if you like it.
i m not blaming anyone for this issue. but for those not really involve in this, give them some time! don't start pinpointing mistake at one another. it will come to a no good.
misunderstanding occurs since there is a lack of clarity during the transmission of communication. just to remind you of that.
for this post, don't start assuming. if you think you know, then you know. if you dont, then you dont. don't say i m not warning you.
listen to both thoughts if you want to help them. dont just listen to one party and start assuming again. that is called unfairness.
oh well. i don't know what the hell i m talking about. i hope you are feeling better after the talk to that certain person.
ooh. and to all OPSS alumni, GO FOR SPEECH DAY!! we need the money in order to cut down the ticket price for the alumni dinner which will be held in July.
hehe. HOLIDAY HERE I COME! in need of serious break, man!
love you syg for being there.
p.s: PHOEBE!!! i feel bad for not being able to celebrate your birthday on the day itself. i promise we go out together. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
.aishah.
Mar 12, 2009
Mar 8, 2009
down it goes all the papers, add and hsbc women champion. frankly, i never felt so relieve before. i mean, seriously, since the beginning of the year i was preoccupied with one thing or another. if its not club, it will be my school work. now that i have stop all club duties, and exam are finally over, i can have all the time to myself.
NOT!
seriously. who can have their break with a 6 weeks holiday, filled with events after events? and i still need to work. like seriously earn bucks. shucks. lots to pay. and seriously lots. so anyone with any job intro?
ADD was horrible. well, true, the event was enjoyable to the people. but lets admit it. it wasnt the add committee that make it good. it was thanks to the entertainment company and MMBE for all their hard work. it is so unfair that we got the name. i don't think we deserve it actually.
i mean, let see. i got missing committee. 2 committee sacks. 4 thinks FOC is much more important than ADD. i understand the cruciality of it all to get it done. but fuck man. ADD is a few days more. which should be your main priority. already i have cut down the amount of work for you so that you can concentrate on FOC. but to ask to leave early because of FOC, a day before ADD really hurts me.
all the lecturers and year 3 will say that we have done successfully. but i think that is the most bullshitting thing i ever heard. did any of them knew i was out there worrying and crying? did they even like help me during the event? urm. like NO. i have to tell them exactly what to do, with all the details and such. and there you are complaining, doing the least. telling me what the fuck to do.scolding me in front of the others ticket holders. FUCK. who you think you are?
DO MY FUCKING WORK IF YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT GOOD!
i would have just sack majority of year 1 in my committee if i had at least 5 more months to work with. still remembered the first time we started out. everyone was eager. slowly one by one die out.
why in the world am i recalling back what happen??
well. i m so definitely disappointed in myself and in the committee. i thank those who were there to support me, boosting my morale and telling me words of encouragement.( Ama, shiffa, val, zhi li, syg, gideon, skye)
then again, i should have stayed optimistic. my bad. my bad
its surprising what one mouth can do to just disrupt your whole reputation. now i m the bad guy, while you are the good guy. thanks.
hsbc women champion has burnt me crisp. yeap. i m damn red and roasted. a slight heat from you will cause me to yelp like as if i was being caned.
well, met a few new people there. and they are damn friendly lah! like the mascot guy. i wished i had tried pushing him down the pool and rolling him around. or the security guy who kept saying i was talking too much and i grown blacker each day. hahax.
it was nice experience working with new people. but there are things that some just cant meet eyes to eyes. compromising is always needed when a collaboration is happening. in time like this, you experience how others work so that you know just how to handle when you meet this people in the future. its with this we know how we can improve the way we handle work.
am i even making sense?
oh screw it.
lots of pictures coming up.. now to my beloved bed. heh.
.aishah.
NOT!
seriously. who can have their break with a 6 weeks holiday, filled with events after events? and i still need to work. like seriously earn bucks. shucks. lots to pay. and seriously lots. so anyone with any job intro?
ADD was horrible. well, true, the event was enjoyable to the people. but lets admit it. it wasnt the add committee that make it good. it was thanks to the entertainment company and MMBE for all their hard work. it is so unfair that we got the name. i don't think we deserve it actually.
i mean, let see. i got missing committee. 2 committee sacks. 4 thinks FOC is much more important than ADD. i understand the cruciality of it all to get it done. but fuck man. ADD is a few days more. which should be your main priority. already i have cut down the amount of work for you so that you can concentrate on FOC. but to ask to leave early because of FOC, a day before ADD really hurts me.
all the lecturers and year 3 will say that we have done successfully. but i think that is the most bullshitting thing i ever heard. did any of them knew i was out there worrying and crying? did they even like help me during the event? urm. like NO. i have to tell them exactly what to do, with all the details and such. and there you are complaining, doing the least. telling me what the fuck to do.scolding me in front of the others ticket holders. FUCK. who you think you are?
DO MY FUCKING WORK IF YOU THINK YOU ARE THAT GOOD!
i would have just sack majority of year 1 in my committee if i had at least 5 more months to work with. still remembered the first time we started out. everyone was eager. slowly one by one die out.
why in the world am i recalling back what happen??
well. i m so definitely disappointed in myself and in the committee. i thank those who were there to support me, boosting my morale and telling me words of encouragement.( Ama, shiffa, val, zhi li, syg, gideon, skye)
then again, i should have stayed optimistic. my bad. my bad
its surprising what one mouth can do to just disrupt your whole reputation. now i m the bad guy, while you are the good guy. thanks.
hsbc women champion has burnt me crisp. yeap. i m damn red and roasted. a slight heat from you will cause me to yelp like as if i was being caned.
well, met a few new people there. and they are damn friendly lah! like the mascot guy. i wished i had tried pushing him down the pool and rolling him around. or the security guy who kept saying i was talking too much and i grown blacker each day. hahax.
it was nice experience working with new people. but there are things that some just cant meet eyes to eyes. compromising is always needed when a collaboration is happening. in time like this, you experience how others work so that you know just how to handle when you meet this people in the future. its with this we know how we can improve the way we handle work.
am i even making sense?
oh screw it.
lots of pictures coming up.. now to my beloved bed. heh.
.aishah.
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